The shadow crept across the sky

until all that was left was a sliver

and with that the world was dark

then  the shadow begun to recede

as we watched the earth was reborn

we watched envious of that rebirth

wishing that we could do the same

with our darkness being removed

hope that we could be changed

and the we would be renewed 

and with that hope it came to be

the darkness slowly left us

and with it abcess we were new

like when we were first born

white as the snow on the ground

A kid once told me " dream as if you'll live forever; live as if you'll die tomorrow."

This weekend was a blast. Friday I went to Atlanta Zombie Apocalypse; which was fantastic. It was reasonably priced for a Halloween attraction and it was zombie themed so I was hooked. It was a great zombie "prenactment" and at one point you got to shoot zombies with a paint ball gun. All of the "actors" did a great job which was heightened by affinity for anything zombie related. After getting home left for the nations capital for John Stewart's and Steven Colbert's rallies. 10 and half hours of driving on the way up through some of the most beautiful country side. Driving up I-85 at sunrise was great. Either side of the interstate was lined with trees in the midst of turning so they were a great array of gold and rouge. Not to mention that the sky was a magnificent crimson. The Rally was jammed packed. I got to show off my clever sign. "I'm bi-partisan curious" I got several good comments from several nice moderates. It was spectacular being there you were surrounded by a sense of empowerment as much as you were by people, and there was people as far as you could see in every direction. Not to mention the speakers were great. John Stewart had his cleverness and Colbert was a hilarious closer. The walk around D.C. was really cool because rather than focusing on monuments like I did last time,(The monuments are really great and I loved seeing the Deceleration of Independence.) I got to see the city and business districts. They were all in colonial style houses which increased the historic feel of the whole town. Then I drove back on I-81 and got to see the Virginia mountains. At one point you could look out and see nothing but the lights of the town which looked as a reflection of the Virginia's star filled skies. Then I got back home around noon took a shower and went and saw my lady-friend working at Moe's. (Everyone wore costumes that day. One of the many reasons why that Moe's is the best.) Then went home studied for my three tests today and watched a great episode of Dexter. 

Its gonna be a good week.

Well its been a while since I wrote something on my wall. I have been putting it off for a while trying to come up with something positive  to write about, however I decided the best way to get over what is happening is to write it down. Well to keep it clear ill break it down in to what is happening by the family members.

I found out my uncle had been arrested and beaten by the Forsyth County Police Department. The reason for these events are still a mystery, but once he was arrested my Aunt's new boy friend moved in with them. Shortly after my uncle payed his bail but while he was inside my aunt took out a restraining order on him, so if he was to visit his kids he would violate his parole and go back to jail. A few week later the police bust into my aunts home for selling meth. The confiscate several thousand dollars of meth money and the remaining meth. She tells that my uncle has been visiting to see his kids and he gets arrested for breaking his parole. Next she gets her attorney to draw up papers to pay her bail and then tries to get someone to sign my grandmother's house over to the bank. Luckily we caught her and saved the house. She is currently lying to her kids to try get out of jail. 

Earlier this year my uncle was arrested for stealing a credit card from the EMT that came to help his dad when he was having chest pains. After he got out he used his son who was a freshmen at the time to sell weed to other high school students. Shortly after that my cousin was caught and expelled from school. My cousin got a day in jail and now isn't allowed to go to public schools. Due to the action's of his step father he will always have a juvenile record. This will show up whenever he tries to get a job or tries to go to college. 

My other uncle is currently on the run for credit card fraud and weapons possession. He was stealing peoples credit card information off the internet then using it to buy guns and pay his bills. He has not been seen in several months and little is know about his where abouts. That finishes up my dad's side of the family.

My mothers sister is an addict. She started out just like any other teenager, smoking cigarettes going to parties.They just thought she was being rebellious. Sometime during this time she became an addict. It eventually evolved into sleeping with older men to get her fix and not coming home at night. When confronted by her family about her addiction she ran away from home. She continued to bounce in and out of half-way homes until she was in her twenties when she got pregnant with my cousin. She quit and didn't use again until after she got in a car accident and injured her spine. She got on pain pills and hasn't stopped. Shortly there after she started selling drugs and having sex to get her fix. She let a young man babysit her daughter so she could go out and get drugs. During that time the young man started sexually abusing her over a long period of time. She told her mother but she just said that she was lying. She eventually got help and the rapist is now in jail. Due to the rapist money they received a small settlement for my cousins college fund. My aunt got in a fight with my cousin over the money and bit my cousin on the face. Shortly there after my aunt was arrested for child abuse, drug possession and drug trafficing.

I am the only person over the age of 18 in my family without an arrest record. I don't want to be come a statistic. I can't wait to leave this town and this family and be free of everything. To have somewhere where I can raise my kids far away from all of this. I just have to finish school. If I ever get in. I didn't get into the winter quarter at Lanier Tech. So I have started applying to ever school with a winter EMT program. I know that without college you it is near impossible to make it in the buisness world. I will be the first person to graduate from college in my family and I don't want to make the same mistakes as my parents did. I don't have much of a family outside of my parents and brother. Luckily I have been blessed with an extended family through scouts and the people I met. For that I am grateful. 

I am not going to let the bad things in life make me a cynic.

I know who I want to take me home....

but I don't know where home is.